My Half Life(私の半生):添削後



★ My kindergarten days 私の幼稚園時代

My kindergarten allowed three different age groups, from the yellow group which is the youngest, blue the middle, and white the eldest. I commuted for two years, starting in blue and finishing in white. Apparently, I was an active child. So I was able to do a pullover on a gymnastics bar and ride a bicycle without training wheels at that time. I remember that I always took the front-most passenger seat on the bus while I was coming back home and got along with the bus driver.


★ My elementary school days 私の小学生時代

In the early grades of elementary school, I didn‘t get good grades because I was not much interested in studies, but I was just good at arts and crafts and also physical education. When I was in the third grade, because I became the head class representative, I remember the teacher in my second grade told me that I was moving up in the world.


When I was in elementary school, I really liked collecting insects. I was especially into collecting stag and rhinoceros beetles in summer. There was a forest called Donguriyama. I enjoyed collecting stag and rhinoceros beetles there every summer. In those days, a friend of mine who lived in Kouya town told me about a secret tree in a forest in Kouya town where we could collect many rhinoceros beetles. In spite of summer heat, we put on a long-sleeved shirt and long pants because we were afraid that insects would sting us and we pushed our way to the secret tree. Finally, I remember we could see the tree where there were five or six beetles. It was a precious memory of mine.


I‘ve always loved sports as long as I can remember. I was much better at ball games than martial arts because I was confident in not being powerful but dexterous. So although I went to a kendo dojo for about two years from the fifth grade, I remember I was sometimes frustrated that I lost to underclassmen. The reason why I started to practice kendo was because my best friend went there. He was the strongest in the dojo. I envied him. However, he moved to Syuzenji, Shizuoka where there was a cycle racing school because his father was a cycle racer who became a cycle racing instructor. It was a sorrowful memory. But I remember I went to his house in summer vacation and I enjoyed activities in nature such as spearfishing ayu and yamame in the river. Since I was confident in not agility but stamina, I was good at endurance running. In addition, I went to a public facility to learn to ride a unicycle at the time. I remember that I was able to ride a unicycle fastest out of all the participants perhaps because I was good at ball games. I have participated in a local competition. I acquired second grade in a sports test when I was in fifth grade. Not bad, right?


Our school made it a rule to show fife and drum corps at the sports day when we were in fifth grade. So I practiced playing the trumpet for about a year to play at the event. But I had trouble improving my trumpet skills. So I realized I didn‘t have any musical talent then. So I don‘t play any musical instruments now. In the upper grades of elementary school, I went to a calligraphy class to practice calligraphy. I am proud that I got a Nippon Budokan award in sixth grade. I became very interested in science and mathematics from about fifth grade. But I was not good at arts and humanities subjects. At the time, I liked to collect things, and I collected key holders, pennants and kept plastic Gundam models I made. Those were memories of my elementary school days.



★ My junior high school days 私の中学生時代

I belonged to a basketball club when I was in junior high school. I played point guard, making the most of my dexterity. Our best team result was the third prize in the west of the prefecture. Not bad, right? Our school set the time slots before and after school for club activities then. Several members from our team including myself even jogged before the morning club activity when the school jogging competition was approaching. We did our best. We were young. In a jogging competition, I was within the top twenty in my grade.


I was the first or second shortest in my class. Compared to an average height of Japanese, I am short even now though. I remember that my teacher sometimes said I was a restless student.


In my sophomore year at junior high school, Tsukuba Science Expo 85 was held. The venue was near my house, so I went there many times. I especially liked the ‘steel pavilion’. It was the time when 3D movies were rare. So I was really interested in why we can see movies in the 3D format. Then, I was excited when I knew the structure of a 3D movie. I could understand that we have two eyes to see objects three-dimentionally. I have loved science since then.


In my senior year of junior high school, an interclass singing contest took place and our class won. The song our class sang was “sayonara“ produced by ‘Off Course’. After that, we performed in a bigger competition as a prize for winning. I still have the cassette tape of that time. To tell you the truth, I can‘t say it sounds marvelous. So whenever I hear it, I cannot help laughing. It is a precious memory of mine.


★ My high school days 私の高校時代

I enrolled in Mitsukaido Daiichi High School. I belonged to valley ball club in my high school. I played as a setter. Our team didn‘t do so well in a competition. At the time, I gave our team a lot of trouble due to my lack of powerfulness. So I remember I sometimes did muscle training after club activities. We stopped by small-time candy store after club activities and always talked with each other while eating small-time candy. It was fun and a precious time for me.


I was not doing so much well at school at the time because I was into club activity, neglecting my studies. But, I was only good at Physical Education (laugh). In my senior year of high school, my right eyesight was getting bad sharply. But my left eyesight keeps good as yet. Fortunately, I can see ordinarily with both eyes without glasses and I am not even getting presbyopia because I can see objects at close range due to myopia in my right eye. I am so happy. By the way, early in my senior year of high school, I mastered Harmonica Fluent Sonic of pen spinning (laugh). After my club activity ended in my senior year of high school, I devoted myself to my studies due to enrolling in college. But, I failed to pass an entrance examination since I couldn’t focus enough on studying. So I decided to be a “ronin”.


★ My ”ronin(preparation for the entrance exams for university)” days 私の浪人時代

I decided to join Kawaijuku at sendagaya and live in a dormitory at shinkoiwa. At the time, I became particular interested in physics. So I gave almost all my time for studying only physics. To be honest, I talked with my friends in the dormitory longer than studied. I was not very good at English at the time. I regret I should‘ve focused on studying English at the time. If I did, my horizon(options for future career) would be broadened now. What is done is done. I couldn’t help it.


★ My college days 私の大学時代

I enrolled in Tokyo University of Science. I majored in electrical engineering. I belonged to a tennis circle. Our tennis circle focused on events. I am a precious memory that our circle went on a trip to Niseko Ski Resort at Hokkaido prefecture and enjoyed skiing. So few members devoted themselves to practicing tennis. But I was into playing tennis. I gave all my free time to playing tennis, neglecting my studies. I focused on doubles game because it was fun to breathe in sync with my partner. But we did not do so well in the competitions. At best, we were a third-round pick in local tournaments. I was not also doing so much well at school at the time because I was into club activity, neglecting my studies. But I did an instructor teaching math and science at junior high school and high school level for about three years at the time. I remember it gave me pleasure to teach to children.


Late in my third year at college, our college made it a rule to conduct proficiency test. The contents of that test were electric circuit, electronic circuit and electronic magnetic. At the time, I tried to demonstrate my ability as much as possible. That test resulted in grade in the teens out of about 150 students. My confidence came over at the time and I decided to enter a graduate school. Our college made it a rule to belong to a lab class in senior college and to focus on research for a year at the time. I went to Ministry of International Trade and Industry Electronics Research Institute for a year at the time and I focused on acquiring engineering skills. I studied contents concerning Photovoltaic Materials. Finally, I was able to pass the national 1 type test and enroll in the Tokyo Institute of Technology Graduate School.


At the time, our college made every effort to increase the number of students to work as government official of the 1st class. So I received following award by our college. I was so honored to receive this award.



★ My graduate school days 私の大学院時代

I enrolled in the Tokyo Institute of Technology Graduate School. But, after I enrolled in this school, I was worried about my lack of ability. After that, I became pessimistic, and I was worried a little about something I would never have been concerned about before. Actually, I cannot look back on those days without feeling depressed. My research theme was to integrate ferroelectric into semiconductor device. At that time, in my free time, all I did was to complain about my research. I think I was starting to get some personal issues from those days. At that time, on summer vacation, I went on a trip to transverse Hokuriku-Kinki Region by a rent-a-car with my classmates. First of all, we went to Noroshiro light house at the northern most tip of ishikawa prefecture and stayed there all night in the car. The night view full of a lot of stars there took my breath away. After that, we enjoyed driving and did the sights of all over Hokuriku-Kinki Region such as Nachi Waterfall , Lake Biwa , Grand Shrine at Ise and so on. That is a precious memory of graduate school days. By the way, I managed to complete a masters degree.


★ My working life days 私の社会人時代

After I graduated Tokyo Institute of Technology Graduate School, I spent about three years doing semiconductor memory device development planning at Toshiba. During the training period, I went to Himeji Factory in order to train. At that time, I also went on a trip to transverse Shikoku by a rent-a-car with my colleagues on summer vacation. First of all, we rent a car at Okayama prefecture and crossed the Seto Inland Sea from Honshu to Shikoku via the Seto Ohashi Bridge. After that, we did the sights of all over Shikoku. We took a bath at Dogo Hot Spring, enjoyed eating Sanuki udon, toured many people who were practicing Awa Odori and so on. Also, we enjoyed several kinds of sightseeing spots such as Cape Ashizuri at the southern most tip of Shikoku and so on. I would say that it always gave me pleasure to drive all my life. In fact, It is a shame that I cannot look back on contents I worked without feeling depressed (laugh) . After I spent about three years working, I suffered from some personal issues and came back to my hometown.


★ My fighting against an illness 私の社会人時代

I‘ve suffered from some personal issues for about twenty years. So until a few years ago, I had been in a continuous state in apathy. And I haven‘t worked for a long, long time. In other words, I regret having wasted a great deal of my life. As soon as I left a company due to some personal issues, I came back to my hometown and I had been in hospital for about three months. After I discharged from hospital, I went to Tokyo University of Science about once a week to get a teacher‘s license for technical high school. I remember I had much trouble commuting to the college because negative symptoms began. However, I managed to get this license.


After that, although I tried to apply for a technical high school as an instructor, it resulted in failure. Then, I tried to apply for a couple of companies, These resulted in complete failure because I couldn‘t even introduce myself due to negative symptoms. After that, although I don’t know whether it was a side effect of medicine, I couldn’t express myself clearly so I kept myself from others for a long time. When I was in by far worst condition, I couldn‘t do daily chore such as blushing teeth, taking a bath and so on. When I took a bath, I felt like I had much trouble washing my body, so I sometimes kept sleeping in the bathtub for more than five hours due to escaping from harsh realities that I had to wash my body. I weighed about 80 kg at my fattest. But now I weigh about 60 Kg. I am so happy.


In recent years, my condition has improved rapidly. Although I don‘t know the reason since I am not an expert, the reason for this is because I started to exercise from about seven years ago such as muscle training and aero bike and so on and I had my physician reduce the dosage of medicines. But, I don‘t do exercise so much since the pandemic of COVID-19 began. I couldn‘t help it. I will start to do things like that again, if the pandemic is over. I regained the desire to try various things. So whenever I become interested in something, I think I should give it a try. Thus, first of all, I got qualifications as .com Master ADVANCE★★ and Microsoft Office Specialist Master about three years ago.

ここ数年、体調が急激に良くなりました。専門家ではないので理由はわかりませんが、7年ほど前から筋トレやエアロバイクなど運動をするようになったことと、主治医に薬の量を減らしてもらったことが原因です。しかし、COVID-19の大流行が始まってからは、あまり運動はしていません。どうしようもないんですけどね。パンデミックが終わったら、またそういうことを始めようと思っています。いろいろなことに挑戦する意欲を取り戻しました。だから、何か興味を持ったら、やってみようと思うんです。そこで、まず3年ほど前に「.com Master ADVANCE★★」と「Microsoft Office Specialist Master」の資格を取得しました。


Also, I decided that I needed to study and conquer English conversation, which is something that I had always felt I was not good at, and had therefore avoided studying.


★ My short term goal in the near future 近未来の短期的な目標

Actually, my dream for the past few years was to become an instructor to teach math, science and English at the elementary and junior high school level. I‘ve made every effort to make my dreams come true for the past few years. But I became aware that I gave many people a lot of trouble due to my personal issues. So I decided to put aside my dream of becoming an instructor to teach to children. It‘s still uncertain how I should do for a living from now. I want to spend some time pursuing how to live for the time being. In my short term goal, I‘ll focus on learning English until I gain English fluency. I could get 785 points on the TOEIC L&R about a year ago.

実は、ここ数年の夢は、小中学校で数学、理科、英語を教える講師になることでした。この数年、夢を実現するためにあらゆる努力を重ねてきました。しかし、個人的な問題で多くの人に迷惑をかけていることを自覚するようになりました。そこで、子どもたちに教えるインストラクターになる夢は、一旦、あきらめることにしました。これからどう生きていけばいいのか、まだわからない。当面はどう生きていくかを追及することに時間を費やしたいと思っています。短期的な目標としては、英語ができるようになるまで、英語の勉強に力を入れたいと思います。1年ほど前にTOEIC L&Rで785点を取ることができた。

I am proud of this result. But, I am not very good at speaking skills. I‘ll do my best to conquer this weak point of mine. It‘s still up in the air whether I‘ll try to become an instructor again or not. By the way, all I have to do is to gain English fluency for the moment. That‘s all.